As I sit here staring at this blank piece of paper I have no clue what will come to my mind. So many thoughts run ramped, so many consume me all the day long. I search for inner peace to calm my demons that haunt me from past occurrences. I forgive but have I really? A question I ask myself often. Forgiving someone is one thing but forgiving yourself also has to take place within forgiveness. Why beat ourselves up over things that we have no control over? But do we? When you don’t have answers to why certain things take place it often leaves an emptiness within ourselves as we search for the answers that may never come, we beat ourselves up. Why do we do that to ourselves? Daily I beat myself up. Christ Loves us he does not want us to live broken hearted or defeated. When we can’t forgive someone they hold power over us; power to control our lives with bitterness, hatred, and hurt. Jesus died on the Cross for our sins so we can have eternal life with the Father; we see the love of Christ in John 3:16.
I learned that I cannot keep on blaming myself along with not forgiving myself for things that I could not control. Sometimes people are blinded by certain things; as Satan comes in forms of things that will appeal to us as something good, but in the end left to destroy us. We must find the broken pieces and piece them back together but we cannot do this alone, we have to seek help from the Lord. Matthew 6:33 states, But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
I have to heal from within and I cannot do that alone, alone I am nothing but with God I am everything. Over the years I have grew into the Woman I am today, by struggles, death, heartbroken, lies, while pain changes people, God heals and does miraculous things with in ourselves if we allow him to come into our hearts and save our souls. We have freewill to make the choices that we make, we cannot blame others or God for the choices that we choose to make with in our lives; it’s up to us on how we choose to live.
I do not judge others for the path they choose to live, for it is not my place to pass judgment; as only God can judge us. So much hurt in the world, sadness, depression, suicide, murders, rape, death, tragic accidents, natural disasters, and the list goes on. Has God abounded his people? The answer is NO, he is here all along. We may not understand the tragedies of the world and often have the question of why? Though we may never truly understand why, I have to believe we will have all the answers to our questions someday. God hears us he listens, are we willing to come to him and talk; open up our hearts, pour out our sadness unto him. For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father (Romans 8:15).
I pray if you read this it will impact and touch your life in some way, this was written sprit lead for these are not my words but they are HIS. Amen
Selah ( to pause or to reflect )
1 John 4:4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.
© Regina M Carter 2014
March 28, 2014
Unbreakable Through my Storms 